I’m not that smart.
That is, I’m smart in the general intelligence sense, but when it comes to common sense, I often demonstrate a lack.
This is not me being hard on myself. One day I’ll tell you about the time I inadvertently rolled an electric fireplace and mantel down a staircase, almost crushing myself by trying to act as catcher. Good times.
Another example: if I was smart, I’d have created a dedicated page on which to link my eating disorder posts from the beginning, thus having a curated collation already. Ditto depression et al. But I wasn’t, and I didn’t, and it’s been nearly six years.
That’s a lot of material.
I’m a little shocked the blog’s not divided and subdivided, to be honest. I usually jump all over organization potential. The lack thereof is very off-brand.
Thank God I can filter posts by category as I create pages now.
Thank God I used category assignment poorly.
in progress…
- 2017
- 37 years of throwing up.
- First times.
- Grief.
- A bad day with bulimia.
- Hotel rooms are dangerous places.
- Letting the eating disorder go.
- You should just.
- Breakfast with bulimia.
- Recovery and responsibility.
- Trying to find the joy in self-care.
- Every day is a new day.
- When eating cereal is bad.
- 2018
- I want in recovery what they’ve got.
- My clothes are mean to me.
- Mental Illnesses steal your life.
- Teeth and eating disorders don’t mix.
- Rage binging.
- I’m more than just my body.
- A lot like me.
- Four months free.
- Choosing to stay the course for today.
- My eating disorder rules, of which there are many.
- The non-linear nature of recovery.
- Healthy choices, not now, but soon, I swear.
- Currently hating food.
- More than just a body.
- It’s not selfish, it’s not, it’s not.
- Elephants and exercise.
- Abstinence doesn’t make the thoughts grow kinder.
- It’ll pass.
- I want to relapse so bad I can taste it.
- Harmful behaviours sneaking in through the back door.
- Perfectionism, editing, and good enough.
- Choosing to stay the course for today.
- Just three pieces of toast.
- An end to throwing up at least.
- It’s a hard time of year.
- 2019
- Failing at my eating disorder.
- Obsessed with my scale.
- Making chili, an exercise in recovery.
- Between five and seven pounds.
- Stages of recovery.
- You have to eat, even when you’re afraid.
- Hoarding food in a secret drawer.
- 2020
- Cancer and an eating disorder.
- Serious thoughts about your relationship with yourself.
- Eating disorders cause bad moods.
- When the notebook is new.
- Radiation and eating disorders.
- The same old refrain.
- The fridge is bursting.
- Vanity. Definitely my favourite sin.
- Not about the body.
- I don’t want to be fat.
- The rise of the eating disorder brain, part 7,294.
- Annoying numbers and hard-boiled eggs.
- I binged yesterday.
- 2021
- Carbs and cages.
- I’m immortal in an “I published a book” kind of way.
- Hidden in plain sight: eating disorders.
- I binged yesterday.
- Updates from recovery road.
- The eating disorder and the most important lie.
- 2022
- I feel strong when I resist.
- Sometimes all you need is a sheet mask and a bath bomb.
- What if you could?
- Eating disorders destroy the gut.
- Apple fritters for breakfast.
- My first book, revisited.
- Abstinence isn’t recovery and other annoying truths.
- Eating disorder recovery is a bitch.
- Clothing and eating disorders – it’s complicated.
- Who are you and how do you want to spend your one, precious life?
- Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD).
- 2023
- How are you brave – eating disorder recovery.
- Lie to everyone except yourself.
- Important lessons get repeated.
- Seize the day.
- Recovery road has too many hills – an off-the-cuff joint.
- Recovering from eating disorders.
- The life cycle of an eating disorder, part one.
- The life cycle of an eating disorder, part two.
- Happiness is lists, an off-the-cuff joint.
- What’s in a blog, an off-the-cuff-joint.
- If mental illness was like a broken leg.
- Embracing eating disorder recovery.
- 2024
- Tight pants and other sins.
- A work in progress – memoir and autobiography.
- I’m neurotic, an off-the-cuff joint.
- Not quite triggered, an off-the-cuff joint.
- I didn’t have a career plan – an off-the-cuff joint.