I’m not a believer in all things metaphysical but I’m not a non-believer, either.

I used to have a more developed spiritual side. I used to see God in the details. I looked for fairies under the mushrooms. I gave reverence to the moon and to her cycles. I was pretty sure I could feel people’s auras when I dowsed with my crystal pendulums.

But I stopped. I pulled back from my spiritual side and immersed myself in science and logic. I’m not sure why. It just happened. I came to see the world as a concrete place, wholly bound by the rules of science. There was no place for magic at all.

A few years back I started reading philosophy. Stoicism, primarily, though of late I’ve been reading more Buddhist thoughts. And it seemed to me that they – the writers – were wise, insightful, and prescient. They were also willing to believe there was more out there than could be measured with rulers, be it spirits or a collective consciousness.

And so, I’m starting to swing back. I pulled my crystals out of the drawers I’d stuffed them into; lovely obsidian and carnelian globes sits on my desk next to me and the pendulums I’ve collected hang from a necklace stand. I’ve also gone back to my cards.

I have a set of rune cards I picked up years ago. They’re used to help gain insight into our lives and suggest courses of action. Again, I’m not entirely sure if they’re metaphysical, magical, or just well-written philosophically pieces of advice that could be applied fairly universally but I do know this:

Seven of the last ten cards I’ve drawn have been the same.

Which is odd.

And makes me think I’d better pay attention.

The rune I keep drawing is Laguz. It represents water, that which flows. The book of interpretations that came with the cards, The Book of Rune Cards (an apt title) is curated by Ralph Blum and its where I get the meaning that comes with the message. He writes, in part:

“This Rune often signals a time for cleansing: for revaluing, reorganizing, realigning. A Rune of deep knowing, Laguz may call you to study spiritual matters in readiness for self-transformation. Success lies in contacting your Intuitive Knowing, in attuning to your own rhythms…”

Which, in light of this spiritual crisis I’ve been undergoing is oddly accurate or highly coincidental.

It’s not beyond the realm of possibility, of course, that random chance could yield that result. I’m sure someone clever could come up with a mathematical formula to prove it. Random chance alone could account for it.

I think I prefer however, to take it as confirmation from the whoever or whatever that’s out there that perhaps I’m on the right path. I prefer to look at it with a more open-to-wonder heart.