The bloganuary post prompts are interesting: they’re designed, in part, to elicit a positive response. Take prompt eight, “what do you like most about your writing.” It’s phrased in the affirmative. You’re supposed to give yourself props. My personal go-to of being negative and critical makes one seem small-minded and surly.
(I feel I should apologize for any imperfections (I’m regularly perfect, of course): this essay is in the way of being one of my “off the cuff” posts. That is, I’m writing it in WordPress proper, rather than writing in Word before copying it to my blog. I might as well confess while I’m here that I love the block editor. I inadvertently switched my “posts” page back to classic view yesterday: I was not amused. Confession two is the one that will really annoy: aside from the glitch that happens when I post from the drafts folder, I rarely have problems with WordPress. And now, back to our regularly scheduled programming.)
I suppose it’s a side benefit of the challenge that also lets us stretch our fingers and meet new people: a positive mental attitude for the new year. Too bad this prompt is the one that sank my ship.
Not really, but I don’t like being asked to speak about myself in positive terms. I’ve moved away, mostly, from the constant internal stream of negative abuse that comes with an eating disorder, but I’m not what one would call a cheerleader to the self by any stretch of the imagination.
(Sometimes I think I make glitchy grammatical choices just to stress Grammarly out.)
Problems with my writing: the structure isn’t great, I’m often wordy, I have a tendency to navel-gaze, and I didn’t edit my old work nearly enough. As in, at all. I assumed I was perfect, a writing savant, lower case everything notwithstanding. I assumed wrong. I have periodic bursts of enthusiasm and I get busy correcting those old posts, but today’s not that day. I’m horrible at differentiating between when to use the colon and semicolon, though I don’t confuse colon and cologne, so there’s that.
As to what I like, I’m sometimes a fan of the font. I think I do a good job with pictures, though, in the early days, I made serious editorial mistakes. Too few images, and then too many. Ah well.
I’m funny, though. At least, I think I am. The occasional reader agrees with me. I’m not overt, I’m dry and often dark, but I crack myself up and hopefully a few others. I find humour in even the darkest of topics. There’s always ease to be found, no matter how dark the night and how far the dawn. It’s a habit people in pain share, I think. It’s a distraction for both the self and the audience. Funny entertains (and sometimes skewers), but it also lets one keep the walls in place.