A look inside my brain.
These Monday meme clearance posts are a smidge stressful. For one, I write them in WordPress proper – I usually write in Word before editing, and before copy and paste. I expect more errors this way. I don’t return much to previous posts, however, so in the real world, it’s not that big of a problem. It’d be nice if anxiety cared about reality. Perfectionism … Continue reading A look inside my brain.
Trust is a responsibility.
How old were we when someone first spoke to us about trust? Was it a warning – trust me, you don’t want to know – or a request to behave – I know I can trust you to be a good girl? How was the concept of trust first articulated to us? I have no idea. We experience it before we can put a name … Continue reading Trust is a responsibility.
Early memes were fun.
It’s been a rough week. I’d been getting a little thin, so I thought I’d gain a little weight. I didn’t talk to anyone beforehand, of course. At any rate, I’ve gained some, but between working on my body dysmorphia and a strained effort at reconnection by my daughter (I can hear my counsellor’s voice, “why are you giving her this much power over you,” … Continue reading Early memes were fun.
Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD)
TW: frank talk about mental illness, cutting, blood Body dysmorphia My obsession with my appearance began young, but self-mutilation only started in my twenties. It was tied to my eating disorder – cutting and picking at my face were part of my bulimic process – but it’s also an entity of its own and hasn’t stopped with my eating disorder recovery, though it’s significantly less … Continue reading Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD)
From Famine to Feast 