Author: Michelle

I've lived with mental illness my whole life. I walk hand-in-hand with my neuroses these days, and sometimes I write about what that's like for me. I prefer the peaceful coexistence of détente to the open warfare of the past. I'm also in recovery from an eating disorder that ate decades of my life, pun intended. It's been hard: recovery is very much a walk through hell - the rainbows, puppies, and chocolate fountains come later - but it's worth it. Recovery lets you have the life the eating disorder promises and lies about 💜
Mental Health

Change is a process; it’s not “one and done”.

I can’t remember what it’s like to live without constantly and compulsively self-checking and measuring. It’s an aspect of eating disorders and body dysmorphic disorder and I rang the bell on both of those. Non-eating disordered people do it as well, of course. But for them, mostly, it isn’t as frequent or as intensive, the record-keeping isn’t as meticulous, and the emotional consequences of “failing” … Continue reading Change is a process; it’s not “one and done”.

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recovery

We’re odd little creatures – a few thoughts.

Humans are odd creatures. We deliberately make bad choices. We deliberately act against our sown elf-interest. We know what the better choices are, we know the discomfort of abandoning our self-destructive and harmful behaviours is manageable and yet, we persist in proceeding down dead-end paths. Addictions, neuroses, negative thoughts, and negative acts abound. We set aside reality and pretend our lives are at the mercy … Continue reading We’re odd little creatures – a few thoughts.

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