I thought it was going to be a stern lecture. The expression on his face said “determined disapproval”. What had made him so irate was unclear. Was it because I was smoking? Is everyone on “team quit”? I’ll get to it. I’m working on it. No, I’m not defensive, why do you ask? I’ve made lots of positive changes, you know. I don’t have to … Continue reading I thought it was going to be a lecture – random thoughts
I’m a shockingly vain person. I don’t want to be, exactly. It comes along with the eating disorder. The only started thinking about it recently. It’s hard to square vanity with self-hatred but an eating disorder shows it’s possible to exhibit both simultaneously. Eating disorders are many things. Self-love is not one of them. Vanity is excessive pride in or admiration of one’s appearance or … Continue reading Vanity. Definitely my favourite sin. *
Everything that’s wrong with the world is down to ponytail holders. I know, you thought the answer would be more complex but there you have it. The answer came to me this morning as I was, coincidentally, putting my hair up in a ponytail. I have a round box on a shelf in my bathroom that holds hair accessories. It’s quite lovely. It’s white with … Continue reading Ponytail-holder existentialism.
I do some of my best thinking when my brain is acting up. And when I’m depressed. I write some of my best poetry when darkness descends, something that annoys me a little; it’s such a trite and expected thing. I get philosophical when my brain is acting up. I get contemplative. I search for a purpose. It’s all very deep. I also do bad … Continue reading Some of my best thinking.
From Famine to Feast 