What doesn’t kill you, blah blah blah.

People like to say “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”. I must be Atlas by now.

I am back from my week-long, running away from home vacation to Mexico. I made it four days. I’m struggling to not consider it a failure. I’m struggling to believe that I made the best decision for myself when I called my parents in tears and asked them to book me a flight home; I was too distressed to do it myself; the interface on my iPhone was too difficult for my challenged state of mind…
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“No” is a complete sentence.

“I was driving home the other day when I had an epiphany – I don’t have to live my life for other people.

This isn’t a new thought and it’s certainly not unique. It’s an idea I’ve been exposed to repeatedly but have failed to execute; however, there, on the side of the road as I pulled the mail out of the mailbox, it came to me again and this time I felt it in my bones.

Suddenly, it seemed visceral.” Continue reading “No” is a complete sentence.

My eating disorder.

~trigger warning – eating disorders~ You got up this morning, stretched, and staggered into the kitchen. Depending on your preference, you waited impatiently for coffee or tea before getting started on your morning routine. You showered, got dressed, and got ready to face the day, at work or at home. Maybe breakfast, maybe not. Lunchtime rolled around, and you were hungry, so you grabbed some … Continue reading My eating disorder.