"I’ve been trying something new with my meditation, now that I’m back to doing it semi-regularly. I’ve been meditating with my eyes open. It’s an odd experience. It makes me feel vulnerable and I don’t like it; generally speaking, vulnerability is not something I do well..."
"i’m afraid of men.
i’ve been reading a book about Buddhism – Why Buddhism Is True by Richard Wright.
these two things are not unconnected."