off the wagon
“how do you explain to someone
who doesn’t speak the language,
who hasn’t made the trip to the edge
and looked over…” Continue reading off the wagon
i’m fat again today
“so i’m fat today but not fat. i have incongruity. what i know to be true and what i feel are utterly at odds. it’s a disconcerting and uncomfortable feeling.” Continue reading i’m fat again today
a new bodega
“i’ve started going to a new corner store – to call it a bodega might be stretching the definition some. it’s been a challenge; if you don’t suffer from anxiety, you might not realize what an enormously big deal a change like this is.” Continue reading a new bodega
i’m dying to be beautiful
“some topics come up more than others, in my blog and in my brain. i revisit this one regularly, because the desire to be beautiful takes up huge parts of my psyche and it’s killing me. analyzing my history and thought processes, unpacking what i think “beautiful” means and why i can’t be okay if i can’t meet the arbitrary and ever-changing definitions i impose are important things to understand” Continue reading i’m dying to be beautiful
