When you wake up angry.
I find it odd when I wake up with an established mood. Shouldn’t I wake up neutral? Some people wake up moody because they’ve been disturbed by their dreams; they’re sad or upset or angry based on the real but not real nocturnal adventures they’ve been through. I don’t remember my dreams so I expect morning equanimity. A mood that’s neither up nor down, just … Continue reading When you wake up angry.
Insert appropriate seasonal greeting here.
The tree is up. It has no decorations this year but there’s a two-year-old in the house so the decision to go “only lights” is a logical one. I’m not interested in playing “find the ornament” ever again. The décor is out as well; again, in a limited fashion and placed up high. The presents are wrapped and tucked away in my closet; the few … Continue reading Insert appropriate seasonal greeting here.
Where’s my reward for playing the game?
I do the right things most of the time. I think the right thoughts – okay, I still have to do cognitive and dialectic work to counter the neurotic inside voices, but I’m trying. I make the right choices. I’m basically a good person and I’m trying to be a better one.
I want a reward for my efforts, despite life not promising that…
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Stop the clocks.
A family friend died this past weekend. I learned about it on Wednesday morning. Then I went out and bought cat food. It’s an oddity of death; for those of us left behind, life goes on. It seems like it shouldn’t. It seems like the world should pause, acknowledge the passing of the now dead, stay silent for a beat so the grief of those … Continue reading Stop the clocks.
