Author: Michelle

I've lived with mental illness my whole life. I walk hand-in-hand with my neuroses these days, and sometimes I write about what that's like for me. I prefer the peaceful coexistence of détente to the open warfare of the past. I'm also in recovery from an eating disorder that ate decades of my life, pun intended. It's been hard: recovery is very much a walk through hell - the rainbows, puppies, and chocolate fountains come later - but it's worth it. Recovery lets you have the life the eating disorder promises and lies about 💜
Mental Health

If not now, when? -an off-the-cuff joint.

I turned fifty-four this year in June and last week I started teaching myself to skateboard. I’ve always wanted to do it, and I’ve always been too scared. It’s odd – I’m fine on scooters, and I have good balance – I can hold a tree pose for minutes. But skateboards have remained a never. They wobbled so; I felt moments away from a fracture. … Continue reading If not now, when? -an off-the-cuff joint.

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off the cuff

If I lost everything – an off-the-cuff joint.

I like to open with a complaint. I find that complaining brings people together – we’ve all personal grievances to air. I’m cash-impaired. This isn’t a new thing for me – the complaint is so well-worn it’s coming to resemble a whine. In the early days of adulthood, I was broke because eating disorders are expensive. Now it’s because long-term disability won’t get you rich. … Continue reading If I lost everything – an off-the-cuff joint.

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Mental Health

Once more, with feelings – depression and memories.

Fall blues. I hate October. It’s my least favourite month and that’s saying something considering I live on the west/wet coast of British Columbia.  We’ve been known to have Novembers with zero days of sunshine. It’s not a good time. [i] October kills my mood. It’s a pisser, and so far, somewhat unavoidable – it’s the loss of light. My mood tanks when light levels … Continue reading Once more, with feelings – depression and memories.

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