control z

i live with one foot firmly planted in the world of imagination and fantasy 
 and i like being there, 
 able to infinitely repeat and revise the moments in my life 
 that upon reflection cause me dissatisfaction.  

i rewrite and edit the whats and whys and hows 
 until the incidents play out better,
 until i am, in those moments witty and sharp and brave and beautiful and fierce;
 a nice contrast to the subdued acquiescence and least resistance that is 
 more often my chosen path.