I haven’t been writing much since my daughter and two grandsons moved in, mostly because it has been difficult, and when things are difficult, I tend to withdraw, shut down, and organize. Serenity through tidying, or something like that. I thought I might struggle with their presence on a practical level – it’s been a while since I had a full house – but it’s … Continue reading A Conflicted Home – an off-the-cuff joint.
1. I’m not at my best in the fall – depression takes over and takes me for a ride. It’s interesting – I can feel my depression creeping up on me as October marches on, and I can feel my brain starting to come back online in fits and starts as December progresses. It’s an odd thing to feel your thinking turn back on. My … Continue reading December and the Primal Scream – an off-the-cuff joint.
To be honest, I can think of nothing worse than not needing sleep. I like the eight-ish hours of unconsciousness I embrace every night. Being on all the time is hard, especially if one lives with a brain that’s ambivalent about making good choices. If your life is about performance or prevarication, the promise of more time feels like a curse. I’m not someone who … Continue reading Sleep Is A Good Thing
1 I’ve abandoned any number of writing efforts this month. I hate everything, and that’s a hard mindset to push “publish” with. I can’t seem to find my feet when it comes to thinking, doing, and feeling. It doesn’t help that my motivation is in the toilet. None of this is unusual for me in October – it’s my second least favourite month for a … Continue reading The Annual, ‘My Depression Is Here Again, and Isn’t That Surprising’ rant – an off-the-cuff joint.
From Famine to Feast. 