*trigger warning, discussion of self-harm, attempted suicide Fine Forearms I used to tell people that the thing I liked most about myself was my forearms. It’s true. They’re aesthetically very pleasing. They’re symmetrical, which is a win on the human approval scale right off the hop. We’re wired to like symmetry. I suspect that’s one of the reasons my nerve-damaged chin bothers me so much … Continue reading It’s Good To Like Yourself, Actually.
Prove You Earned That Air I struggle with feeling that I’ve not done enough to earn my air at any given moment of my existence. These long-standing feelings of insufficiency, of not being enough just as I am, without improvement, provided a door that my eating disorder used to sneak into my psyche with, and there she set up camp. I hustled and worked hard … Continue reading Rewriting the Narrative: From Self-Doubt to Self-Acceptance
The Trouble with Change I’ve been struggling in my life for the last few months. I’m not so good with change, and I’ve had much of it this year so far. It doesn’t matter that some of the changes are good – aka adopting a dog – change is change, and my brain gets agitated and testy with it. I like my routines and ruts. … Continue reading Flirting With Alcoholism
What’s one small improvement you can make in your life? I spent a lot of time outside as a child and teenager. Timing has a lot to do with that: I’m Generation X, and we didn’t have much in the way of indoor temptations. Pong only holds the attention for so long. Twelve channels if you had cable. We did not. I’d play outside with … Continue reading Nature makes things better.
From Famine to Feast. 