I’ve added a new page to my blog. I’m going to be putting all my eating disorder posts on one, easy-to-ignore page. I can’t believe I haven’t over-organized my page before now. So many sub-categories are pending. I also can’t believe I started. It’s going to be a big job. I’m coming up on my six-year Word Press anniversary and I’ve concluded that I write … Continue reading Flashing back – an off-the-cuff joint.
Eating disorders have one goal: they want you dead. They hide that under “be thin, be fit, be healthy, be perfect, be beautiful,” but they don’t actually care about those things. If they did, the goalposts wouldn’t continually move. You can’t win with an eating disorder and living while trying to maintain it is a halflife. When you give up alcohol or drugs, you can … Continue reading Recovering from eating disorders.
Until quite recently, I was afraid to eat a lot of things. I didn’t reintroduce banned foods back into regular rotation. I struggled to accept a different body. What if I got fat and bad things happened? But bad things happen regardless of weight. I knew that, but I didn’t know it if you know what I mean. But things have changed fundamentally of … Continue reading The Life Cycle of an Eating Disorder, and My Recovery So Far, part two.
The life cycle of an eating disorder is simple on paper. You don’t have one, then you do, and then, if lucky, you won’t again. A tidy summation, but real life is rarely tidy. The acquiring, living with, and recovering from an eating disorder looks more like an impressionist painting than a number line. Unless you’re a TV movie or Netflix special. I remember the … Continue reading The Life Cycle of an Eating Disorder and My Recovery So Far, part one.
From Famine to Feast 