The finish line. July has come to an end, and so has my commitment to 30-Soft, the plan I decided to follow to kick myself out of an extended period of stalled ennui. It was a simple plan, on paper, and the changes didn’t seem too onerous: follow a healthy eating plan; drink enough water; exercise at least twice a day, once outside; read at … Continue reading Endings and Continuations: Finishing 30-Soft, and What Happens Next
In A Rut I’ve been in a rut that I can’t quite shake. Part of that was the annual spring depression, though that’s waning now. Unfortunately, the rut hasn’t filled itself in, nor do I find myself magically out of it, ready to start walking up the street. It would be easier to get going if the rut didn’t appear to be filled with heavy … Continue reading Doing Thirty-Soft.
Prove You Earned That Air I struggle with feeling that I’ve not done enough to earn my air at any given moment of my existence. These long-standing feelings of insufficiency, of not being enough just as I am, without improvement, provided a door that my eating disorder used to sneak into my psyche with, and there she set up camp. I hustled and worked hard … Continue reading Rewriting the Narrative: From Self-Doubt to Self-Acceptance
The Trouble with Change I’ve been struggling in my life for the last few months. I’m not so good with change, and I’ve had much of it this year so far. It doesn’t matter that some of the changes are good – aka adopting a dog – change is change, and my brain gets agitated and testy with it. I like my routines and ruts. … Continue reading Flirting With Alcoholism
From Famine to Feast 