The fractured nature of (my) grief.

On grief and grieving. Did you know that Elisabeth Kübler-Ross’ 1969 book “On Death and Dying” was written for medical practitioners? She wanted to address the treatment protocols for dying patients by providing information to fellow practitioners on what the experience was like for their terminal patients. It’s not a blueprint for people going through the grieving process after they’ve lost someone as I always … Continue reading The fractured nature of (my) grief.

The perfect week starts on Monday and rolls easy – an off-the-cuff joint.

The week starts on Monday, and the new year starts on September 1. These are my truths, but they’re not everyone’s truths. They’re not even my wall calendar’s truth – I like those to start on Sunday. The Sunday-column-first is the calendar I grew up with and that kind of patterning is hard to change, especially when there’s no real need. It’s not as though … Continue reading The perfect week starts on Monday and rolls easy – an off-the-cuff joint.

I’ve been thinking some more.

I’ve been thinking most of the time, and I don’t like it. It’s not good thinking. The thoughts are about things that hurt. They’re dissociative daydreams in which I interact with my daughter, mostly to my advantage. I purge the hurt that is plaguing me by decimating her. I don’t like those trains of thought, so I generally redirect. I remain a nasty vigilante but … Continue reading I’ve been thinking some more.