Prove You Earned That Air I struggle with feeling that I’ve not done enough to earn my air at any given moment of my existence. These long-standing feelings of insufficiency, of not being enough just as I am, without improvement, provided a door that my eating disorder used to sneak into my psyche with, and there she set up camp. I hustled and worked hard … Continue reading Rewriting the Narrative: From Self-Doubt to Self-Acceptance
I’m feeling tired and overwhelmed these days. A lot is going on in my life and in my head, and my stress level is red-lining. I’m not my bestest self ever when I’m stressed out. I’m short-tempered, quick to anger, and can be rude and unkind if I feel even the slightest bit challenged or under threat. Patience has left the building once again. I … Continue reading You can’t unring a bell, and you can’t turn back time.
Dog Walks and Body Knocks, A Story in Three Parts. 1. Part I Once upon a time, there was a middle-aged woman – let’s call her Michelle – who didn’t look her age, laugh lines and love handles notwithstanding, who decided to add richness to her life by adopting a dog. Said life had been in a bit of a holding pattern since the death … Continue reading Dog Walks and Friction Burns
Once upon a time, someone told me I was a calming presence, that I was soothing and restful to be around. I was very flattered, especially considering the chaotic nature of my inside life. My brain is many things, but it’s not restful. She was referring to the fact that I’m not especially reactive to people or things when I’m out and about. My responses … Continue reading My Dog, the Mirror
From Famine to Feast. 