Author: Michelle

I've lived with mental illness my whole life. I walk hand-in-hand with my neuroses these days, and sometimes I write about what that's like for me. I prefer the peaceful coexistence of détente to the open warfare of the past. I'm also in recovery from an eating disorder that ate decades of my life, pun intended. It's been hard: recovery is very much a walk through hell - the rainbows, puppies, and chocolate fountains come later - but it's worth it. Recovery lets you have the life the eating disorder promises and lies about 💜

Mental Health

The Annual, ‘My Depression Is Here Again, and Isn’t That Surprising’ rant – an off-the-cuff joint.

1 I’ve abandoned any number of writing efforts this month. I hate everything, and that’s a hard mindset to push “publish” with. I can’t seem to find my feet when it comes to thinking, doing, and feeling. It doesn’t help that my motivation is in the toilet. None of this is unusual for me in October – it’s my second least favourite month for a … Continue reading The Annual, ‘My Depression Is Here Again, and Isn’t That Surprising’ rant – an off-the-cuff joint.

MichelleOctober 28, 2025October 30, 202515 Comments

philosophy

Do The Right Thing.

‘Doing the right thing’ and ‘being fair’ are virtues I aspire to, and this has been true much of my life, though I look at other people’s situations with kinder eyes now, now that I’m older. I could be harsh in my youth when I perceived failure in these areas. This was an especial problem with my eating disorder. The behaviours it demanded led to … Continue reading Do The Right Thing.

MichelleOctober 13, 20259 Comments

politics

I Wish I Knew How To Everything.

Once upon a time, early in the aughts, I had a thought – they’re rare, so I try to mark the occasions. I thought that maybe I’d buy an old, 1982 Honda Civic station wagon to repair and get back into running shape. I’d had one during my first few years at university, and loved it. I thought I could get one of those “All … Continue reading I Wish I Knew How To Everything.

MichelleOctober 1, 20252 Comments

Mental Health

The Shopping Fast – I Did Not Learn to Crochet

Taking a shopping break. A little over a year ago, I decided I needed to take a break from shopping. I had in my possession too many possessions, too much of almost everything, really, save money. I’d made shopping into a daily recreation and socialization activity, and justified the relentless consuming by sticking to thrift stores. It doesn’t count if I buy it used, right? … Continue reading The Shopping Fast – I Did Not Learn to Crochet

MichelleSeptember 29, 20254 Comments

From Famine to Feast

Eating disorder recovery and mental health. Learning to live the good life.