Recovery, philosophy, mental health, things that interest me, and random poetry.
The longer you’ve had your eating disorder, the harder it is to change the way you think. This is not to say you can’t recover. It just means that the incredibly hard business of changing what you do is only the beginning. Fixing broken thinking patterns is where the real work lies. If you can’t …
Continue reading The rise of the eating disorder brain, part 7,294.
I write about my neuroses for several reasons. The first is, write what you know. I’ve spent a lot of time with myself. We’re intimately acquainted. I also write to understand. The more you think about something, the more you come to know it. The more you know, the better you are equipped to fight. …
I recently read an article on climate change and the emotional consequences thereof. The coming devastation is making people ill in advance; their fear and worry, their sense of impotence, and their grief is manifesting in a variety of problems including anxiety and depression. For some it is so severe, they develop PTSD. In an …
Some people spend their lives looking ahead, hoping for a better future. Some people live their lives fearing the past. Both states are quite pointless; the now is all we ever have...
What is it about years that end in the number nine? Why are they such a big deal? We get excited when the calendar clocks over to zero yet, realistically, it’s much ado about nothing. Whatever meaning we’ve assigned is absolutely arbitrary. The years we count are just a convenient construct and don’t actually measure anything in a significant or particularly relevant way. They’re not even globally consistent...
Do you want success? Do I? You’d expect the answer to be “of course” but I’m not entirely sure. That’s not to say I don’t have fantasies of developing a following in the millions, winning an award (an Oscar would be nice, despite the fact that I’m not involved in the entertainment industry), or becoming very rich. But I do little in the way of pursuing actions that would support those outcomes. I’m not pushing for any of those things. I guess the answer to the question is, it depends. Whether or not I want it, and whether or not I feel I’ve achieved it depends on the definition you use...
...I want to believe in signs. I struggle, however. I rationalize. So, imagine my frustration when signs keep smacking me in the face. I have a spiritual side despite my logical bent and in support of it, I have several practices I partake in. For instance, I like to occasionally dowse with crystal pendulums. I also regularly draw rune cards...
