Change is a process; it’s not “one and done”.

I can’t remember what it’s like to live without constantly and compulsively self-checking and measuring. It’s an aspect of eating disorders and body dysmorphic disorder and I rang the bell on both of those. Non-eating disordered people do it as well, of course. But for them, mostly, it isn’t as frequent or as intensive, the …

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The Seven Functions of the Mind.

I’m a fan of Stoicism, for all that I’m still a baby stoic and thus don’t have an expert opinion. But when has a lack of knowledge stopped anyone from pontificating? I’m still a beginner, just wading into the waters, picking up bits of the philosophy here and there and incorporating it in much the …

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When the meds start to work.

I think the medications are starting to work. After nearly half a year with serious depression and eight weeks at the “things are getting fairly dire” level, my psychiatrist finally upped the dose on one of my meds. It’s now over the recommended limit but that doesn’t particularly worry me. They build a lot of …

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Cancer and an eating disorder.

The worst part about the appointment I had with my oncologist, beyond the fact that I have an oncologist which still seems surreal, was not going over the pathology results. Nor was it setting up the schedule for radiation which will run Mondays to Fridays for twenty-six sessions. The worst part was getting weighed. Which …

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Cursed with perspective.

Perspective is a good thing. It can facilitate conversations. It can help stave off arguments and keep anger in check. It encourages understanding. Perspective gives insight. But sometimes, having perspective can be problematic. Understanding the other person’s point of view can sometimes impede the drawing of necessary lines. You “get” them. You understand their feelings …

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