a child looks on as voices rant and rail. a single tear falls
"If you don’t have an eating disorder that requires you to throw up the foods you eat, either regular meals that end badly or binges, you may not understand the thrill that comes from being able to abstain from doing so for protracted periods..."
"...Even when I’m depressed, there are still good things in my life. One thing I’ve historically failed to be grateful for is my depression..."
"I don’t want to get better. I want to be better. I’m tired. Mental health struggles are tiring. Depression is tiring. Anxiety is tiring. An eating disorder is tiring. They’re boring too. They bore me..."
"on this dark and quiet night, my only companion is the flicker of the dashboard lights. my thoughts are at rest, i am steeped in rote as i retrace the well-known path toward home..."