I’m still on the road. It’s four years on from when I wrote this piece, and I think I’ve made some significant progress. Among other things, it’s been almost two years since I voluntarily vomited. Considering what came before, that’s something of a miracle. I forget sometimes, in my haste to remind myself that I’m utterly imperfect, how far I’ve come.
I’m on a road that stretches so far off into the distance, I can’t see the end. I’ve heard tell that once I get there, life will be better. I’ve heard the trip’s a challenge, but the destination makes it worthwhile. I’m told that once I get there, things’ll be alright.
Once I get down the road, I’ll be calm, grounded, and fully me. They tell me my eating disorder can’t live there.
They tell me I’ll be happy.
They tell me I’ll be free.
Those are appealing thoughts, so I start down the road again, determined to get going. I’m always desperate to escape my here and now.
The road’s unpaved and the weather forbidding. Ruts and puddles abound. There are no signposts, no hints as to how long the trip will take. There’s just the road, stretching out in front of me. Walking is an act of faith.
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From Famine to Feast. 
Congratulations on your progress! Your journey is encouraging to others on the same path. Another WP blogger (beautybeyondbones) shares the experience of her successful recovery from a life-threatening eating disorder. Are you familiar with her blog? Her recent post on August 16 talks a bit about it. Good luck, and keep on keeping on!
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Thanks for reading and commenting. It’s a small world – I follow Beauty Beyond Bones and yes, I love her recovery story. Have a fantastic day.
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Managing two years of sticking to an un-signposted bumpy road with some bushwhacking and getting past massive potholes is pretty damn impressive!
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It really is. Reminding ourselves to give ourselves credit when it’s due is kind of important. We’re sure quick enough to give ourselves criticisms when we falter.
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Yup.
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I’m off to read the original post but what made you bring it to the forefront? Were you just browsing through old posts?
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I was seeking a (new) project and organizing the blog’s history seemed like a plan. It’s like electronic painting and redecorating ☺️
Okay, this never comes up. I was waiting for an appropriate place to share it, and it never came, so appropos of nothing, I was watching a documentary and learned that Florida is the sinkhole capital of the world (though adding it to the comment on your post about maybe moving on would’ve been good). It’s because of the increase in drought seasons. 😲
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Hahahahah LOL yup!
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Although, I remember reading about one in Chicago a few years back. That kinda shocked me. Goes to show that you are never safe.
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