"how do you explain to someone who doesn’t speak the language, who hasn’t made the trip to the edge and looked over..."
"so i’m fat today but not fat. i have incongruity. what i know to be true and what i feel are utterly at odds. it’s a disconcerting and uncomfortable feeling."
"i’ve started going to a new corner store – to call it a bodega might be stretching the definition some. it’s been a challenge; if you don’t suffer from anxiety, you might not realize what an enormously big deal a change like this is."
"some topics come up more than others, in my blog and in my brain. i revisit this one regularly, because the desire to be beautiful takes up huge parts of my psyche and it’s killing me. analyzing my history and thought processes, unpacking what i think “beautiful” means and why i can’t be okay if i can’t meet the arbitrary and ever-changing definitions i impose are important things to understand"
"i would tell you that i love you more than my life, and that your existence is more vital to me than anything else in the world, and that your morning smiles give me a reason to get up every day –
“The events of my life are like the rolling of the waves, the changing of the tide, the shifting of the wind – they contain no judgment."
"the world is spinning too fast. the requirements are piling up and pressing me down, while my wants and wishes are shunted off to the side..."