“i want to be ms. barber when i grow up… i want her belief that her body is just one thing about her, and it’s not even the most important or interesting thing.”
recovery is very much non-linear, and it persists in being so despite my wishing that it was otherwise. you work, you stumble, you relapse, you sink. you drop low, back down into the pit. what makes it recovery rather than just a fall is what happens next.