balanced
i read a book years ago in which the author used the term “balanced” to refer to a character who was poised at the edge of a mental breakdown. i’ve always considered it a remarkably appropriate term. Continue reading balanced
Month: December 2017
when eating cereal is bad
i had too much cereal this morning. my brain took me to task regarding the quantity almost before i’d finished pouring it. Continue reading when eating cereal is bad
every day is a new day
every day is a new day. this is either a good thing or horrifying, depending on your point of view and state of mind. Continue reading every day is a new day
in search of the happily ever after
we all want the happy ever after, but what if i’ve been going about it wrong? Continue reading in search of the happily ever after
on the edge of a knife (#depression)
i’m balancing on the edge of a knife as i fight my #depression, and it’s fatiguing. Continue reading on the edge of a knife (#depression)
trying to find joy in self-care
it’s hard to care for yourself when you don’t care about yourself. i want the joy of self-care back. Continue reading trying to find joy in self-care
#ptsd and imagined death
“i’ve killed my son three times this week, and my father twice, and it’s only tuesday. ptsd is a bitch.” Continue reading #ptsd and imagined death
#recovery and responsibility
i have issues with some of the twelve steps in december of 2014, i entered a recovery facility to deal with my eating disorder and my tendency to abuse benzodiazepines. Ativan, Xanax, Valium – they were my friends. They were an adjunct to my bulimia. They kept my brain quiet and helped keep the dark thoughts away. like an eating disorder though, their rate of … Continue reading #recovery and responsibility
breakfast with #bulimia
when you are trying to recover from an #eatingdisorder, a big part of the challenge is food. how do you food? how do you eat “normally”? advice abounds. eat when you’re hungry. eat what you like. stop when you’ve had enough. eat a vegetarian diet. stick to whole foods. eat clean. it’s all so much noise and it misses an important point. i don’t know … Continue reading breakfast with #bulimia
i’m on a road
i’m on a road that stretches out in front of me and i can’t see what’s at the end. i’ve heard that once i get there, my life will be better. i’ve heard that the trip is challenging but the destination makes it worth it. i’m told that once i’m there, i won’t struggle every day. i’ll be calmer, more centered, more grounded, more me. i’ve heard … Continue reading i’m on a road
