november 12, 2017 my history with hotel rooms is complicated. sure, they’re great when i’m on vacation, but i have other hotel stories as well. i don’t really like to revisit my history but i’m slowly learning that if i don’t own my past, and forgive myself for it, and let it go, i’ll get … Continue reading hotel rooms are dangerous places
daydreams are important. they can do more than simply help us momentarily escape from the demands of our life. they help us see and imagine our future. they help us define our goals. daydreams let us see the possibilities. sometimes. sometimes, however, daydreams are paralyzing. mine can be. oftentimes, they stop me from moving at … Continue reading daydreaming (nov 9, 2017)
november 5, 2017 in the storage banks of my mind, where the memories of thousands of episodes of bingeing and purging live, one always jumps to the front of the flashback queue. there are other episodes, worse episodes, more deadly episodes but it is this one, from my second year at university, when i was … Continue reading a bad day (nov 6, 2017)
the work of trying to let go of my eating disorder includes grieving. i am giving up a large part of my life, my coping mechanism, my support system. the important part is finding something worthwhile and healthy to replace it with.
october 31, 2017 first times are generally seen as something special. the first bath. the first laugh. the first step. the first day of school, the first dance, the first kiss. the first time you fall in love. we take pictures and share stories. we commemorate our firsts. there was no camera the first time … Continue reading first times